a gestation period of indeterminate length

and now we wait.  yes, it COULD be a short wait, but our adoption agency’s forum recently posted a message stating that most of the birthmothers coming in to the agency have been requesting childless couples who live in Texas.  So it could be a looooong wait.  There could be lots of bumps along the way.  Recently, I read (and began subscribing to) this blog which has a very sobering story about one couple’s wait.  They’ve been chosen twice and both times the birthmother decided, in the very end, to parent her own child.  I read this blogger’s story and found myself thinking, “this could totally happen to me.  this person has done nothing differently than I would and this could be my story.”  granted, there are also lots of other happy stories about people getting matched right away with a birthmother who is a perfect fit for their family… but there are also stories about people getting pregnant on the first try, and people getting pregnant on their first IVF, and so, if I seem a little reserved in my excitement about being done with the initial paperwork phase, I hope you’ll understand.  I’m just trying to protect myself and be realistic.  Even if we don’t have a birthmother who changes her mind, this could still be a long wait.  I’ve got plenty of distraction to keep me busy in the meantime, but I could be waiting for this baby much longer than the traditional nine months.