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it’s been a busy few weeks of adjusting to our new schedule with me back to work three days a week.\u00a0 for now, we’re doing childcare sharing with two families and J is able to stay home two mornings, but that will change in the next few months and we’ll have to adjust again, so i’m trying to just enjoy each day as it comes.<\/p>\n
my first week back at work was more difficult than i’d expected for me.\u00a0 I mean, I’d already been back two mornings a week for the past 6 weeks, what was the big deal, right?\u00a0 But 3 full days in a row of not seeing my baby and I found that I’d come home just missing him like crazy.\u00a0 The good thing about that was that I then spent the rest of his awake hours just talking to him and singing with him and playing with him until it was time for him to go to bed and i finally, intrinsically understand the push-pull feelings of working parents.\u00a0 when i’m home with him all day, i don’t tend to focus on him exclusively.\u00a0 There’s laundry to be done and dishes to be washed and other people’s kids to take care of (see childcare sharing note in first sentence) and, well, it’s good for a baby to learn to be content entertaining himself for short periods of time right?\u00a0 But he doesn’t get the intense one-on-one interaction all day long.\u00a0 I think they sort of balance out.\u00a0 Don’t they?\u00a0 In the end, I think the only thing that I’m really missing out on by working is time to exercise.\u00a0 When I get home from work, I want to spend all of my time with baby dude until he falls asleep.\u00a0 Maybe I’ll have to take up a night-running habit.\u00a0 Not to say that it’s not difficult to miss out on the little bits of my boy’s day, but I think it would also be hard for me to not get the fulfillment (and, let’s be honest, the break from someone needing my care all the time) that i get from my job.\u00a0 i know this is not a new struggle.\u00a0 i know my ideas are in no way new or novel ideas, but this is the first time I’ve experienced them from the inside.\u00a0 It makes me wish (once again) that we lived in one of those countries where women get 1 year maternity leave.\u00a0 Oh, Canada…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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